Getting things straight

Hello Everyone-

My wedding shower is this Sunday. I'm very excited! I can't wait to see all my friends and family. But I'm nervous, I hate being the center of attention, it makes me really uncomfortable. Especially since I recently lost a lot of weight, every time I haven't seen someone in a long time they spend the first 5 minutes in shock of how I look. So I know when everyone sees me there's going to be a lot of fuss about my weight and then constant questions about the wedding. 

So life has been has been a little different lately. As I become more stressed out with the upcoming wedding shower, new job and the wedding itself, Jake has been getting a lot more strict. I have been very high-strung lately which leads me to making rash decisions and being quite snippy.

I have been spanked more times in the last week and a half than I can even remember, but I'm pretty sure it's been almost every day, sometimes twice a day. But as my title says, I think I'm finally getting on track. :) Slowly I'm becoming a little bit more sane as I cross off tasks on my to-do list.

I love DD so much, it has gotten me through a really stressful time of my life. If we were a 'vanilla' couple, I know that there would be so many fights and this household would be very high stress. I'm so lucky to have my fiance. :)

Life Update / Converting a Vanilla

Hello!

So I obviously have been slacking. I had major surgery October 10th, after that we went to Vegas and with my health and vacation, I let this slip. :) Whoops.

Holidays were good, very busy, but fun! I got a new Pistol for Christmas from my family, it is amazing. I went shooting with it for the first time yesterday, it definitely needs to be broken in!

Converting a Vanilla:

Converting a vanilla to a spanko life is a lot of work. :) When I originally was trying to figure out how to introduce this concept to Jake, I was only thinking of the things *he* would have to do. I never thought about myself and all the changes I would have to make to be a better submissive and fiance.

As we learn more and more about this lifestyle, we grow and change as a couple. It's been great. Jake has been doing a lot of his own research and reading on D/s and with that, he has become a much stronger and loving Dominate.

We have a very specific set of rules written out, and the exact punishment they will bring.  It's a very clear concept... if I chose to do/not do something, I'm actively choosing the consequence. I really enjoy the clarity, whereas I know a lot of Dominates would probably prefer to choose consequences as situations came. But it works for us.

We've become good friends with another D/s couple. Unfortunately they live very far away from us, in West Virginia. But I have learned a lot from Carolyn and hopefully Jake can learn from her husband. And hopefully after the wedding we can make a trip down there to see them. You can find their blog here. She keeps it updated a lot more than I do! :)

For now, my thoughts are scrambled and my brain is sleepy. I'll update soon.